I didn't think this would ever happen...today my son punched me in the face.  We were on our way home from visiting our property and my son wanted us to stop at McDonalds to get food.  We told him we would pick it up and take it home.  When we got to McDonalds, he looked over at me and said, "where are my friends to play with?"  I told him he had been playing all day and that we were going to pick up our food and take it home.  Next thing I know, I see his arm reaching over with a clenched fist and he hit me in the mouth.  The first thought through my mind was to slap him in the face, but I quickly thought that it is not the proper response because, what would I be teaching him?  Instead I took his hand and slapped it.  I then told my husband to pull through the drive and go home.  Then the wailing began.  My son didn't understand why he couldn't get his food.  He cried all the way home and we told him that as soon as we got inside he was to go straight to his room.  As my husband was opening the door my son said, "you made me sad, you need to say your sorry."  I could not believe my ears.  I made him sad...Of all the selfish things someone could say.  I was beside myself so I just told him to grab his blanket and go to his room.

I made his dinner and gave it to him in his room and then I went into my room, into my bathroom and then into my closet and cried.  What have I done to fail so miserably as a mother.  Why is my child so negative, spoiled and hateful.  I feel as though I have failed somehow.  Many thoughts rushed through my head as I sat there.  I just didn't know what to think.  The worst part of it, was that my husband really didn't think that he did it on purpose.  Maybe he was flipping his hand and accidently hit me.  I just could risk this incident to be seen as an accident.  After a while my son brought his plate down and he then got the lecture of his life from his father.  He was talked to about hitting people in general, never to hit girls and most of all to never ever hit his mother.  He said if he ever hears of him hitting someone again he will really be in big trouble.

I know this happens sometimes in families and that he is struggling to find his way...but here is my problem.  Every week my son goes to his Mother's Day Out program, he comes home with something new everytime.  Several times my husband has walked into the classroom and has seen boys hitting each other, even punching each other in the face.  How am I going to send my soon to be 5 year old son out into the world with all these bad things.  How do I teach him to be his own person and make his own decisions?  How will I know he is going to be a good person?  How do we teach him that he doesn't need to be like everybody else?  I don't want to send him out into the world to be hurt over and over again by these awful people.  At the same time, I don't want to shelter him so he doesn't know what to expect.  It is so hard being a mother.  These little ones are under your protective wing for so long and then you have to send them out into the unknown.  Does every mother feel that way?  So  many times you watch parents walk by with their children running all around.  Aren't they worried about their children getting snatched up by a stranger?  Aren't they worried that their children are acting inappropriately? 

Please tell me I am not alone in my fears for our young ones...this world is not as it once was.

God please protect our loved ones from harm.  Please help them be the people you intended them to be, allow them to walk in your light and feel your everlasting love.  Amen

 

You never get over the deep concern you have for your children, even when they are grown, married and living miles and miles away. We have to entrust them to God's love and care. Love you honey:)

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